Lame sauce.

I wish I knew how to have fun. I have fun when I'm hanging out with my family, but that's about it. Seriously, when I'm home all I do is watch movies, read books, and pretend to clean my house. I've been exercising lately, but it hasn't shown me any results so I'm having a hard time even wanting to get gross and sweaty for nothing in return. I watch Chris and he has fun with anything. I wish I could be more like him and not get embarrassed when he starts singing at the grocery store. I've been thinking about this for a long time and I really have no idea how to learn to have fun. I was so spontaneous and outgoing five years ago, but now its like I don't even exist if I'm not around Chris or my family. I really hate that I have next to nothing that I like about myself. Sorry for the depressing rant, but when you've been in a rut for five years all you have some days are pointless rants. :(